Every day, that urge to just drop everything, grab a backpack, withdraw all my savings and travel around the world (or at least to Japan, Turkey and NZ) gets a little bit stronger.
I want to explore, but how do you do that when you're in front of a screen in a windowless room 5 days a week and public transport slows to a halt on the weekends?
Everything is just so easy. So unchallenging. Sure, we have problems. Part of our house burned down. The cat likes to chew poisonous things. I've had to deal with two stalkers in the last two years, one of whom is still causing me stress, because he's the stabby-go-postal kind. Given that my partner is a full time student, we're low on income too.
But these problems aren't interesting. Stressful. Strengthening, maybe. But not interesting.
I don't want to be challenged just by how much stress I can take. I want intellectual challenges, social challenges, the chance to use my practical skills.
But the logistics of doing anything else overwhelms me. I just don't know where to begin. I don't even know the questions to ask.
I'm going to keep on asking until I find the right ones.
